Honoring my body

"Honoring my body"

Dear body,

I see You as the beauty you are,

...

I acknowledge You as the sovereign being that you are,


I honor you for the service you have shown me or might I say us... For I understand NOW that there is no separation....


I have chosen you as you have chosen me,


I understand NOW that we are doing this together.


This being one of the biggest events the Multiverse has ever experienced....
'Descension' in form....


My beloved, tell me what you want....


My beloved, tell me what you need...


So that we can soar together, merged as ONE....


Blessings Be

Letting go of my attachment to individuality

Letting go of ego! 

Dear all,

I would like to share something with you that I believe/KNOW (was trying first not to sound conceited, interesting how that false conviction is so deeply ingrained...) is vital for our personal/planetary ascension/awakening.

What has been at the forefront the last couple of months in my personal life is the notion to release my/our attachment to individuality.

This process for me has been and still is that of studying and acknowledging the ego and its strong stranglehold on my thinking, emoting and actions. Its will to survive is powerful and in order to do that it identifies with the body and mind. My/the ego's workings has led to the demise of many many civillizations on our beloved GAIA. As the matter of fact I have led many lifes where the ego had dominated my life.....Especially one in particular, which is very hard and sad to look at, but I came to realize that it is in need to be UNCONDITIONALLY LOVED, ACCEPTED and especially FORGIVEN.

While I am writing this I feel my ego protesting in a way and at the same time being released/healed through the Unconditional LOVE from my HEART.

I would like say the following to my ego:

My dear ego,

You have been a wonderful friend and powerful teacher at times through the sojourn of my life here on Gaia. You were there when I most needed you and you have taught me valuable lessons. You have helped me though very dark times where survival of the fittest was the order of the day. I thank you and salute you for that!

However, NOW the moment has arrived to LET GO and surrender into the MULTIDIMENSIONAL SELF. In the beginning It might feel very uncomfortable but I PROMISE you that there is nothing to be lost and so much to be gained.

My dear ego, I LOVE you unconditionally, I ACCEPT you unconditionally, I FORGIVE you unconditionally.

Thank you for listening.
MD SELF

WOW, this feels intense in a good way..... 

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LOVE & LIGHT!

What you perceive to be is your reality

Perception is Reality

I have had firsthand experience on how a certain perception strongly influenced the reality that I was living. This only became clear to me when my perception changed.

A while ago I was of the strong opinion that my daily job (social work) was not suitable anymore for my being and I was very outspoken about it. I dreaded going to work and was highly convinced that I needed to change my job.

I was convinced that the job was holding me back to live a fuller and happier life.  I felt strongly that something needed to change and that something had to do with an external event. Something outside of myself.

I  made preparations and had a plan as to when to do it and how. But then something changed. It was very subtle. It was as if a soft new breeze had passed through my conviction. It went unnoticed in the beginning but the seed was planted.

I began noticing it as it felt as if there were cracks occurring in my strongly held conviction. I began entertaining different thoughts and emotions as to how grateful I am for this particular job. Thoughts about freedom that comes with it and the gratitude I was feeling when I would help a client to help him or herself. Over time the penny dropped and I realized that I WAS creating change for the better.

My tasks at work didn’t change a bit. It was my perception that did. I started feeling joyous when being at work. The relationships with my colleagues were starting to blossom and I was more able to work from my intuition.

The cards had been reshuffled for my feeling. Now the choice to stop or not could be made from a more unbiased predisposition. Whereas before I was highly stubborn and my ego would not allow any shifts in my conviction. Now the choice would be based on something more substantial. It would be based on a much broader and clearer vision.

In hindsight, I feel that it was a shift in my state of consciousness which preceded the shift in my conviction. When this shift occurred I cannot tell with certainty, but that it occurred is indisputable. 

This experience really stands out for me as to how perception creates reality.  

In lak'esh (I am another You),

Nuri 

Being in the Flow?!

Intro

We are being bombarded with this expression through a multitude of sources as it has become an integral part of the everyday English language. Even in my home country, the Netherlands, this has become widely used and everybody seems to know what you are talking about. But do we really know what it means?

In this blog, I will do my best to shed light upon this particular concept from my point of view on the basis of my experiential knowledge. I hope it will bring some clarity as to what it could mean to you and in this way encourage you to recognize it and acknowledge it when it happens to you. It may even help you to see what brought you into the flow.

So what does it mean exactly? According to an online dictionary it means: any uninterrupted stream or discharge; continuous progression. What comes to mind is an unobstructed flowing river.

What happens when you disrupt the flow by let’s say building a dam? The water starts accumulating on one side and it stops from flowing uninterrupted. What if we look at the water as being energy?

Bit of context

I feel that before going further I need to provide a bit of context[1]. Before there was anything there was no-thing, which could be said to be still energy (Brahman/Divine Father). As it is highly intelligent -for lack of better words- this still energy decided that it wanted to experience itself i.e. manifestation. It is said that then the still energy started flowing (Shakti/Divine Mother). It started moving as opposed to being still. As an analogy water that is still is the Father and water that is moving or flowing is the Mother. They are one and the same, identical. Since then, existence is perpetually being manifested in an uninterrupted flow or movement.

This would mean that manifestation occurs when energy is flowing or in movement. In effect, deductively speaking it would also mean that it has a certain direction. I will come back to that.  

My experience of flowing

How do I experience being in the flow? For one thing, when I am writing and I am in the flow the words are writing themselves so to speak. The writing becomes effortless and the insights gained while writing are invaluable. Not to mention the immense joy that I experience in doing just that.

On a more intuitive level it feels as if I am doing exactly that what I am supposed to do at this point in time. My heart is flowing with love, I feel alive and in alignment with my higher purpose.

It also seems as if I am in the state of no-time. In this state, it seems that time becomes fluid and I am not able to determine as well anymore if 10 minutes or half an hour has passed. My experience of time just seems to change.

Quite often than not time passes by very quickly, which I determine in hindsight when I am out of the flow and look at the clock. Mesmerizing!

On the level of the energetic reality, I am experiencing a flow or a movement of energy that desires to be expressed or manifested through my physical body.

The purity of the expression of this energy – read uninterrupted flow – depends on ones state of consciousness. Ones state of consciousness is like a filter[2].

Say that I would succumb to my ego (filter) and write from the perspective that I know better than the ‘others’ – illusion of separation – and my truth is the right and only truth. That would interrupt the flow of energy in a way that it would distort the original information.  I admit this is an extreme example, but it illustrates the point that I am making here.

Energy is neutral and being in the NOW

Additionally to the above mentioned context, energy in its essence is neutral. There is no judgment in terms of good energy or bad energy.  I agree that one could direct the energy in terms of self-service at the cost of others. This however, depends on ones state of consciousness (unity and oneness vs. separation and illusion). Having said that, being in the flow for me is an effect of being in the here and NOW. Let me explain.

When I am in the NOW I am aware of my every thought and emotion. And as stated earlier everything is energy flowing wanting to be manifested and so are thoughts and emotions. If for example I become tempted by a lower vibrational thought that accompanies a certain emotion, such as resentment, guilt or anger and allow myself to be sucked into it without awareness. I will send that flowing energy out into the world for it seeks to be manifested and eventually it will come back as such in my physical life. Either positive or negative. It doesn’t have judgment. It is based upon the law of energy out is energy back.

One could argue that this is also being in the flow, however, without conscious awareness. That means that one is not consciously aware of the fact that he is the creator of his reality ending up potentially harming yourself and others. This is not what being in the flow means to me.

To my opinion one of the cornerstones of this whole awakening that we are experiencing as a collective is about taking responsibility for your creations i.e. for your every thought and emotion. However, that is a whole different topic of discussion.

My experience of not flowing

The situations when I am not in the NOW and not in the flow, which would tempt me into being sucked into the lower vibrations is when my body is tired and hungry. Especially the combination of those two conditions work very powerfully on my being. Also having lots of stress, not exercising and not taking the time to tend for myself really interrupts the flow of energy in my body.

The irony of it all is that at some point when writing this blog I fell out of the flow. However, I kept on going ignoring the signals that my body was giving me. This off course effected also my writing and it just didn’t read so well any more. I (ego) was not able to admit to myself that I was out of it and then there was also the time pressure I had put on myself. Writing a blog about being in the flow but not being in the flow whilst doing it. I can only chuckle about it.  Forcing it does not work for me. It is not effortless. It wants to impose and control, which is not of love and joy. It only interrupts the flow of energy.

When are you in the flow?

When being in the NOW I am aware and able to discern as to which idea/thought/emotion is actually of a higher vibration and feels like unconditional love and joy. This then directs me towards following up on it (action), because naturally I want more of it! And before I know it, I am in the flow.

When are you in the flow?

Namaste!

Nuri

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[1] https://www.kalimandir.org/sri-ramakrishna-on-the-divine-mother/

[2] www.suzanneliephd.blogspot.com - there is much higher vibrational information to be found here on this particular topic.

Surrender of the ‘self’ to the ‘Self’

Certain events have occurred in my life recently that have led me to believe that my focus this year will be on surrendering. While in one reality – old 3^rd dimensional paradigm - this may sound like as if I am giving up or that I am accepting my defeat. In my reality though this is and feels like the next step towards Self-realization. It all depends on perception in the end.

On one level, it does feel like as if I am being defeated. The question that remains is then, which part of me feels like that. My answer would be my Ego or also called small self. That part of my being has allowed me – and still is - to experience a sense of individuality on Mother Earth. It has allowed me to feel separate from my fellow brothers and sisters, human or not. The ego is like a grounding point and thus part of the package deal in order for a soul to be incarnated onto this beloved planet.

Those events made me realize on a deeper level that I – read my ego and intellect (mind) – are not capable of and thus highly limited in understanding the intricacies of how the omniverse works. Experientially speaking, it is not capable of taking into account all the variables that contribute to my ‘life’ in particular, let alone ‘life’ in general on the level of the solar system, galactic, universe and so on. Why and on what bases do things happen the way they happen? I honestly and irrefutably do not know. I do not know! And that feels good! Real good! Liberating even.

Control takes on a whole different meaning. Actually depending on the level of experience it may get obliterated all together. Ego has the tendency to take charge of and control your life, because it has an insatiable thirst to be acknowledged –self importance - or in other words it fears to be left out of the equation. It fears non existence, death. What comes to mind is the ego death experience of Sri Ramana Maharshi at the age of 16, alone in an empty room in his uncle’s house situated in the city of Madura in India, oblivious to its meaning and the enormous implications of it. In no way am I claiming that I had the same experience, but I can say that I understand it on a deeper level now as compared to before.

This doesn’t mean, however, that I relinquish my personal power and responsibility. As the matter of fact my ego is still very active but my awareness of its workings has shifted. The focus has shifted significantly from power over to power within. With power over I mean the desire to control and plan my life to a degree that it does not leave room for change. Not wanting to leave anything to chance, minimizing insecurities, doing the most rational thing are just several of the many indicators. It also really doesn’t help being born and raised in Western Europe where the degree of avoiding insecurity is very high. Although I had already embarked on the journey of following my intuition and inner voice more and more this feels different. This feels as if the realization has sunk into my cells as I already feel and notice the implications and so does my partner, family and friends.  It is not fully understood though and by some even experienced as that I am distancing myself or perhaps even experienced as that they are losing me.

For me living my life from my ‘power within’ entails having faith and trust into being led and guided by a powerful, wise and loving source from inside of my being. Practically speaking, this could mean that certain guidance from within might not make sense at all at least not at that point in time given the information that is available then and there. However, the deep trust I have in the authenticity of the guidance, which for me comes as the feeling of unconditional love and a knowing which starts subtle and then becomes solidified, would make me take a leap into the suggested direction now more than ever. It is the deep realization that insecurity is there to teach me to be more vulnerable in order to experience the power of it; the power of an open heart. With every step that I take into the direction of the unknown I see that the feeling of trust in mySelf will incrementally increase. I believe that further down the road this would eventually mean that the personal will be aligned with the Divine will.

I feel that with every step that I take into the unknown I let go of an old belief or thought pattern, which makes me feel lighter every time I do it.

The answer to every question is truly found within as I realized that I do not need to understand everything intellectually.

I only need to surrender into it with awareness.....

In Lak'esh ( I am another You)
Nuri